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HELL TO THE FUCKING YEAH. I would travel all over the world. Fuck going to college, I'd win the lottery. I would go to Europe and Asia and Africa and everywhere. I'd visit LA and check out where the hell this picture was taken:                

I'd also go to NYC and like REALLY spend a day there, instead of just going, if you know what I mean? And then I'd do some cazy shit, like maaaybe skydiving? And DEFINITELY parasailing again, that was amazing. And omg, I don't even know, just everything. <333

Honestly, I hate all this college application stuff. I've never been good at making decisions and I've always been a procrastinator and everything is bound to just smack me in the face. I have to worry about transcripts and applucations and resumes and all this other shit that I'm terribly confused about. I just want to choose a place and get in and be don with it. But I'm terrified of wanting to go there and then end up ahting it or something. And I think my dad thinks I'm way smarter than I am and that I can get into a lot of colleges that idk will ever take me. I haven't really been involved in school much extra-curricularwise and not much volunteer work. I hope my grades will be enough, but I feel downright stupid next to some kids in my grade. They don't have to study or do fucking ANYTHING and they get high grades. Ugh, I feel like its too far away to worry about this shit right, now. I want to enjoy my last year here without worrying all the time.

Being a senior is pretty cool.

Lisa is in my Health class and we talk all the time. Loren is in my public speaking and we're doing partner work on Monday. Linda's in my Relating class, (and public speaking and relating are in the same room and I get sooooo confused.) Mrs. O'Hara is my math teacher and she's like the nicest person ever/she loves me so that class is awesome and even more awesome b/c Christy's in it :D. Marissa, Courtney, Tristen and Alex are in my English and lunch, and I like the class, but I didn't finish annotating my summer reading book which means I'll get a lot of points off my first test, :/. Lavin's in my gym, but we also both have study halls after lunch on day 1 and last on day 2! OMG WHAT A STORY ABOUT LAST LUNCH ON DAY 2. Lindsey and Alex are in my P.I.G. and the class seems pretty cool. And OH MY FUCKING GOD, I am IN LOVE with my CSI class. Kristine is in it and so is Melanie and my teacher is hysterical. We go way off topic all the time, but end up fitting everything we need to learn into the class period and I almost cry I laugh so hard everyday. I NEVER expected that my favorite class senior year would be a science class. But it sucks that a lot of these will change in the middle of the year anyway because I take a bunch of different classes second semester, :/

wooohooo. It looks better than I thought it did. I'm driving to "work' but I still need to find a job. But I'm excited. I'm dying for a road trip. Aimee wants one and Michelle mentioned it too. But I don't think my mom would ever let me, :/

Like extremely hot. The other day, I was running around the block and it was lightening, no rain or thunder though. I'm kind of proud bc I've been able to keep that up again. I did it last summer then stopped when school started, but I am not going to let myself do that again. Wii fit is helping me out alot. Apparently from last Sunday to this past sunday I lost 1.5 pounds. :) I'm trying my hardest to stay healthy. 


OH BTW I'M FINALLY GETTING A CAR. Its a tiny old light silver 2000 dodge neon. It doesn't look great and its so old that it shakes when it runs, but its something I can call my own. My friends want to road trip. I'd love to, but idk about my parents. I need to use the power of persuasion.

The whole trip was really fun. The first two days were just Saph, my mom, Joe, Diana and I and on Wednesday Michelle and Kristen came. Monday we left at probably 10 something? and then chilled all the way to Montauk, we got there and unpacked, checked out the room and went to the beach. We ate at Shagwong.<3 Tuesday I actually woke up to my alarm at 8oclock which NEVER happens. We went to the beach again and later we decided to go to the gym. We worked out a lot and we decided we wanted to go to the steam room but didn't know how to work it and changed back into our clothes before it actually came on. we're retarded. But anyway that night we decided to go to Gosman's to shop but not to eat. We ended up eating at the Inlet which is across the water but to get there we had to drive like six miles in the thickest fog ever. It was weird. Diana bought a dress at Gosmans however, and its gorgeous. Wednesday I woke up at like 10:30-11 and Michelle and Kristen had just gotten to the hotel, I think? once everyone woke up we all went to the beach again and then the gym. Later that night we cooked food and ate it in the room and then had a bonfire.<333 That is one of my favorite things ever. my moms chair almost fell into the fire, as did I, BACKWARDS might I add. But yeah it was pretty incredible. Thursday we went to the beach again and I decided to go to the gym bc I really wanted to work out. I thought that only Sapphire and Michelle were going walking on the beach, but they met up with Diana and Kristen went to meet them and they all took some amazing pictures together. If I find the incredible one of Saph kicking sand I will post it immediately. Anyways, we went to the Harvest for dinner and Michelle said, I'm not eating for enjoyment, I'm just eating to let the food out bc I'm sick. And my mom looks at her completely serious and basically yells, "WELL NOBODY ASKED YOU TO BE A DUMPSTER!" It was one of the funniest things ever. Michelle and I burst into laughter and Kristen started crying she was laughing so hard. Later that night we decided to take a walk on the beach. People were having bonfires and shooting fireworks and it was pretty fucking amazing. We walked pretty far before coming back and deciding to head into town. We walked to John's and bought some ice cream and headed back to the room. No one was ready to fall asleep yet so we decided to take Diana's stuffed animal and every other thing possible and throw it at a moving fan. They threw the things from the loft, so they actually threw it from above the fan. Once the stuffed animal landed right in the top of a lamp. Lets just say we were all dying from laughter that night so hard that a few rooms over could hear us. We woke up a little late on Friday but watched some more Gossip Girl just like every other night and packed all our stuff up. We met up in town to buy some souvenirs and then we said goodbye bc they had to get back early. Diana had a sweet sixteen and Michelle and Kristen both had work. Which sucks bc Michelle was sick too. I would dieeee. So we stopped in East Hampton and shopped for two and half hours and then came back home. We met up with Jessica and went to see Funny People last night and it was alright. We chilled with her after for a little while too. Tonight I'm going to chill out with my office friends at Linda's and we're going to go see 500 Days Of Summer. I'm extremely excited bc this movie looks amazing.



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Definitely Chinese. Its the healthiest thing I eat and I could have chicken broccoli and rice with soy sauce all the time!<3

When I was younger I would always try to prove to people that I wasn't who they thought I was. And I feel that is kind of true. A lot of people would probably get a different idea of me then the real thing if I had a quick encounter with them. But I realize now that as long as I make myself happy, thats good enough, and I had to stop trying to change myself all the time in order to impress someone else.

Sam came over on Saturday night and he bought the tape. I looked so happy then, I miss it so much. I really want to burn it onto a dvd somehow, haha. I was hungry so my dad left us money and we walked 1.7 miles to All American so I could get some fries. Sam was about to kill me. We didn't want to do anything Sunday so we went food shopping, bought stuff to cook on the bbq and make smores. I roasted my marshmallows over the stove, haha. Then he slept over again at my moms and we did Wii Fit. He got across the tightrope thing on expert, he must have fucking amazing balance. The furthest I've gotten is 8 yards on beginner. Monday we woke up and went to see UP in 3D. Each ticket was 15 fucking $ bc of those glasses, but still, holy shit. I felt terrible bc Hannah got back from the college thing and they were supposed to pick him up earlier but Saph HAD to stop at Verizon to get a new phone and Joe ended up taking him home after that.

Tuesday I went and interned at the physical therapy place again. I barely have to do anything honestly. I make lumbars and cervicals, and give people ice packs. I basically sit and watch whatever is on TV for 4 hours. On my way home Brittney called me and asked if I wanted to go to the mall. I got home, changed, and went to pick her up. We went to Roosevelt. Basically as soon as we got in there she started asking about boys and drinking. I mean, she's a good friend, honestly, but I don't understand why so many people think you NEED a boy in your life or NEED to be drinking all the time in order to be happy. I'm fine with friends who drink as long as they don't put other people's lives in danger. I'll probably never have an alcoholic beverage and I'm okay with that, but I don't know why no one else is.

I'm going to Montauk on Monday. I really hope I tan.


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What a week!

So Saturday I went to the Saint Williams fair with Michelle, Michael and Saph. We ran into some old classmates and talked to Victoria for a while. Its nice to catch up. We saw some other people but I guess we were pretty unliked because no one really said hi or anything. I went on the Scat and Pharaohs Fury for the first time and although I had a lot of fun, I felt sick at the end of the night and had to feel like I was going to die for five hours before I ended up throwing up at 3:45 in the morning. It was kind of terrible. Sunday we bought Saph a digital camera, finally. Monday, I honestly don't remember anything, which scares me a little. Tuesday I went to meet Sumintra's friend Jane at the physical therapy place I'm interning at. She was like the nicest person ever. After I left my dad drove me to Wantagh Pool where I met Saph, my mom, Hannah and Leslie near the bay. I was laughing so hard at everything they said that I could hardly speak bc my throat hurt so much. Hannah came back to our house and slept over, and we watched Knocked Up. I love that movie, lmao. She left at noon the next morning and then came back at 5ish to pick me up to sleep over thier house since my mom and sister went into the city to see Billy Elliot with Central Moves. We ordered pizza and watched home videos, and I was crying laughing so hard at my two year old self. Thursday I woke up and got picked up and ready for the interning. Its from 2-6 every Tuesday and Thursday, not terrible. Friday I got up and cleaned and then went to see Harry Potter with Linda Christy and Taylor. I read the first book up to the part where he leaves to GO to Hogwarts and got bored and I only saw the first two movies so I was totally confused, but it was very good. Tonight Sam's coming over since Hannahs going to visit her college and I'm praying he brings the home video so Saph can laugh at me. ;)

Wow a lot has happened in the past month. I got my report card finally. I passed the physics regents and the spanish regents which iI was terribly worried about. I got a 69 on physics and 85 on spanish. I have no idea why its so much easier than all the shit we did in school.

I don't remember what happened like the week after I last wrote, but since then...

Michael Jackson died. What the fuck? I was on ONTD it it basically crashed all of livejournal and got suspended and everything. Weird shit. On Saturday the 27th my dad wanted my sister and I to go to his friends daughters graduation party. She was graduating eighth grade, and I didn't really know her so I was relieved when they said we could bring a friend. But just so happens that basically all of saphs bffs were on vacation and my top 5 were all busy. Lavin could come though and we had a lot of fun. Thank god for her, :). Then we went to Kiara's s16. We kept requesting "Beat It" but they never played it. We stuck with Nick the whole night and neither of them wanted to dance so we sat there. Hella boring. The next day I was going to just chill out but Brittney called and I hadn't seen her in forever. We went out to lunch where my mom called and reminded me I had Amanda's graduation party. I went late after getting mani-pedis with Brittney. I missed her, she was so funny. Then Sap and I went to Amanda's and chilled for a while. Shannon slept over and they were crazy. We did a bunch of errands the next day, and Saph got angry at my mom and started talking to Shannon about it. My mom overheard and punished her. She hasn't been out in awhile and I think she's going mad. Yesterday she said to me, "This is killing me. Do they not think this is going to lead to drugs?!" I was dying. The next day I ung out with Christy and Lavin. We went to Christy's house and then Long Beach. It was really nice except that they gave me shells there and they smell terrible and I need a new bag bc they're that fucking bad, lmao. Then we went to see "Away We Go". I t was so fucking cute. I almost cried like three times. Maya Rudolph was phenomenal, and John Krasinski didn't remind me of Jim at all until my friends kept going, "Aw, Jim!". I was like guys, shut upppp. Oh! I saw the Hangover on the Friday before that with Mike. LMAO, Zach Galifianakis was fantastic. I loved Ed Helm's tiger song, I swear I want that as my ringtone. :)

Since then I've been out a few times, but not as much bc I feel kind of bad for Saph. We're pretty sure at this point my mom's punishing her and making her spend time at home so that my mom can spend time with her bc she misses her. Like, okay, but don't go as far as a big punishment, you know?

OMG, and Sapphire and I watched home videos last night and I was emaciated and Saph looked like a fat Philippino person.

THE HANGOVER OH MY GODDDD.

"You guys may not know this, but I consider myself…a bit of a loner. I tend to think of myself as a one man wolf pack. But when my sister brought Doug home, I knew he was one of my own. And my wolf pack, it grew by one. So were two…so there was two of us in the pack. I…I was alone first in the pack, and then Doug joined in later.

And 6 months ago, when Doug introduced me to you guys. I thought…wait a second, could it be. And now I know for sure, I just added 2 more guys to my wolf pack. 4 of us wolves running around the desert together, in Las Vegas looking for strippers and cocaine. So tonight, we make a toast!"


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I've got no plans and too much time.
I feel too restless to unwind.
I'm always lost in thought,
As I walk a block to my favorite neon sign - we are nowhere and it is now

But the night rolls around and it all starts making sense.
There's no right way or wrong way.
You just have to live.
So I do what I do,
And at least I exist.
What could mean more than this?
What would mean more?
Mean more? - hit the switch

And we'll keep working on the problem
We know we'll never solve
Of love's uneven remainders
Our lives are fractions of a whole
But if the world could remain within a frame
Like a painting on a wall
Then I think we'd see the beauty then
We'd stand staring in awe - bowl of oranges


i need to go to a concert.

I never do anything I say I'm going to do, so obviously I haven't run or whatever. Fuck, I need to get healthier this summer. So I haven't missed a day of school this year, I guess thats cool. The dance recital was really fun. I was really excited to see Hannah and Sam but I couldn't hang out with them after because I had to finish that damn English portfolio. Then Hannah sang w/ the Metropolitan Youth Choir? I think, on Sunday so I had to do as much as I could when I got home with it too. It was due Thursday and I'm actually proud of how it came out. Oh, and Hannah did great, (:

Monday was Saph's Class Night. I went and my Kindergarten teacher didn't recognize me. She graduated on Friday. Carolyn did the graduation speech and I came pretty damn close to tears. Saturday was Carolyn's graduation party and I got to hang out with Amanda and BB who I haven't seen in the longest time.

Yesterday I watched Benjamin Button and it was really cute. I watched Rachel getting Married later, and I thought it was good, but I was thoroughly confused, and I don't know why? Whatever.

I have a History Regents tomorrow, wish me luck!

I'm sick. Fever, coughing and runny nose. I still had to go to school so I didn't miss anything important, and I hasn't missed one day this year, so to miss a day when there are less than 10 left? No thanks.

I still had to go to dance too, because our recital is Saturday. I got really pumped after doing the dance a bunch of times and went for a run today after. I have a lot of homework, but I did it anyway and it felt amazing. I don't know why I usually decide that I'll just wait a day. I need to make it a priority to do every single day.

LOL IF YOU REALLY KNOW ME, DO I EVEN HAVE TO ANSWER THIS ONE!?

Haven't updated in a while. Five day weekend from today through Monday, so thats fun. I'm going to the mall with Julie tomorrow and Nicks barbeque is on Saturday. Michelle actually wants to try watching the office, I guess either on Sunday or Monday? From the beginning because she thinks she'd understand it more, and might actually like it. I thought she was kidding. haha, :D

I have a bunch of physics regents questions that I have to do, so NOT in the mood, and won't ever be. Fuck, I hate that stuff. I don't even remember my other homework, because the shit we have to do is so specific. D: UGHHH.

WHAT A NIGHT, wow.
So I got back from dance and took a shower. Saph got picked up from dance and was furious with my mom because she didn't buy her yellow rice that she needs to bring in tomorrow for her class. Apparently she told my mom numerous times. So I tell her we'll check out CVS and 7-11. But neither have it. So its pouring outside and my hair is still soaked from my shower and my clothes are soaked from the rain and i'm wearing shoes too small for me and we're running full speed down Merrick Road trying to get to Pathmark in time so my mom won't find out we're not going to CVS and shoot us. Its at least 10 long blocks away, and I look like I've been sitting outside in the rain for the past hour. Saph's running with me, we get there and pick some up, and run past Saph's freinds mom, because htat would be a nightmare. If my mom found out she'd freak, but Saph's shoes are too small, so now we're running the same as before, except she's running barefoot, and it's like 9:30 at night. I haven't started any of my homework at this point, and my mom calls us to find out where the fuck we've been, we lie. She and Joe pick us up, and we get home and Saph decides to tell her the truth, to further piss her off because Saph's already angry with her for several reasons. If I get in trouble for this, I will be livid.



TL;DR, IN SHORT, WTF MY LIFE?!@#%%&